This pain

I've stuffed it

Buried it deep inside

But now like a weed

Its growing and coming back up

Its to strong to pull out

It seems like everyday there are more

It's been hidden away to long

Now its coming out with a vengeance

I can no longer keep it stuffed

It won't stay buried deep inside

Its all coming out

Everyday I tell myself that I don't care

But it seems as if

The more I say it the more I do care

I just can't let it go

Walk away as if it never mattered

How can I stop thinking about this

And just move on

Because I need something more

I need to let this be

But the more I tell myself to let go

The more I hold on

You can tell me I deserve better

But can't you see

Your telling the wrong person

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Lost

These last few days

I've felt so lost

I don't know where I am or where I'm going

Some days I don't even know who I am

What do I do with everything thats inside

Its all starting to spill out

Yet no one seems to notice

These last few years

I've felt so lost

But you were always there

I can feel you hold me in your arms

Telling me you love me

That you'll take all my problems

And wash them all away

But is it wrong

To want for something more

Somethings missing

And I don't know what it is

These last few days

I've felt so lost

I don't know where I am or where I'm going

Some days I don't even know who I am

All for Show

Here I stand

Big, Tall and Strong

But what you can't see

Is how weak I really am

Inside I'm fragile

I break so easily

I try so hard

To build my walls

So you can never break my heart

But they're all for show

Because all it takes to knock them down

Is a kind word or simple smile

So before you take a chance on me

Please be careful

Because I'm not as strong as I look

If I could only be more like you...

I wish I had the courage you had

To live with no fear

To trust that everything will be okay

I wish I had your strength

To live everyday as if it was your last

You trust in the lord

Know that everything will happen in his time

You live what you believe

Never compromising or backing down

I wish I could be more like you

Your courage, strength and trust

But most importantly your Love

For you love reminds me

To be courages, strong and to trust

Because your love makes me strong

Because you believe in me

I wish I had your courage

To be able to live without fear

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The truth may be killing me

But lying only hurts me so much more

I know whats going on

I know whats going to happen

But you still try and hide it from me

And act like everything is okay

I'm not a child that needs to be protected

Even if I still need you to hold me in your arms

And miss being able to sit in your lap

I'm old enough to hear the truth

I see all the signs

I know what they mean

So why do you still pretend

The truth is slowly killing me

But your lies only hurt me more

Can't you see

Can't you see

I don't know how to let you go

Can't you hold on a little longer

Because I don't know what I'd do without you

I need you in my life

I need you by my side

Can't you see

I'm not ready to lose you

It's too soon for you to go

Can't you try

For me can't you try a little harder

Can't you see

How much I need you

What you mean to me

Please don't leave me

I'm not ready to lose you

Because I don't know what I'd do without you

Can't you see

How much this is killing me

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There I'll be

I'm right here beside you

When you can no longer stand

I'll stand for you

When you can't take any more hits

I'll take them for you

There's nothing I wouldn't do for you

I'll always be behind you

Helping hold you up

Holding your hand when you get scared

All you have to do is turn towards me

Tell me what you need

And there it will be

Because you truly are my dear friend

So close to my heart

And I could never bear to see you in pain

So no matter what

There I'll be

You hold me in your arms

So safe and so sound

Washing away all my fears and insecurities

How could I ever go wrong with you by my side

You tell me that you have a plan

That I'm never alone

That no matter what I'm going through

You're right there holding my hand

When I'm really struggling you even send little angels

With the face of a friend

When I'm needing the most

You always provide

You hold me in your arms

So safe and so sound

Washing away all my fears and insecurities

How could I ever go wrong with you by my side

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