Love me or Hate me, I'll always be ME!
So here is where I post my thoughts. Away to get out all that I need to see. Even if no one reads it, even if no one likes it, sometimes you just need to let your thoughts air themselves out and this is where I do that.

Thursday, April 29, 2010












You don’t know what to believe

Because you forgot where you’re going

You’ve got yourself so turned around

You’ve forgotten whom to trust

If you could just give me your hand

And I would lead you away

To somewhere its safe

To be with someone you can trust

You don’t know whom to trust

Because so many before have let you down

You don’t know how to let go of the past

But can’t you see

There is no way to grasp the future

If you can’t forget the past



I like the unpredictability

I like not knowing

But only on the small things

I don’t mind surprises

When their good ones

But I hate not knowing where I’m going

Where my life is leading

I want to know its going to be okay

I like unpredictability

But only in small things

So if you could just let me know

Where I’m going next


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Tuesday, April 27, 2010

I'm holding you in my arms
As I rock you to sleep
Dreaming of the man
You will one day be

May you grow to be strong, smart and proud
But my true hope is that you'll know love
Because I only want the best for you
And that's what love is
The Best

I'm holding you in my arms
As I rock you to sleep
Loving you with all that I am
With all that I know
And all that I can

So sleep well my dear one
And know that my love is always here
And one day may you know
Just how I feel

A world of unknown




I don't know what to say
I don't know what to do
You see me in a way no one else ever has
What if I don't live up to your expectations
What if I'm not who you think I am
Because I'm not so perfect

What if you're only seeing a person that isn't there
There is so much you don't know
I may seem put together now
But inside I'm falling apart
Inside I don't know what I'm doing
Inside I'm all mixed up

You see me in a way no one else does
And part of that is great
But what if what you see is just an illusion
One that won't last
Because I'm not perfect



I no longer know where I'm going
I'm willing to let you take over the lead
To follow only you

Can you take over the wheel
Drive me where I need to be
Because I no longer know where I'm going

Without you I'm going in circles
Lost in my own dark world
Can you bring in your light
Lead the way

I no longer know where I'm going
I'm willing to let you take over the lead
To follow only you



Saturday, April 10, 2010


Why do we do this to ourselves
Why do we set ourselves up for pain
When we know nothings changed
Why do we keep going back
Keep hoping for something different

Even after we took all the pieces and walked away
Why do we look back
Why can't we let go of the past
And only look forward to the new

Why do I do this to myself
Why do I set myself up for pain
When I know nothings changed

I was barely able to walk away
It was almost a crawl
So I have whats left of
My heart, my pride, my sanity
So why do I keep looking back
When I know nothings changed






Monday, April 5, 2010

I'm so tired of trying
So tired of looking
I feel like nothings going to happen
Why do I keep trying
Just to get let down again?