You look at me and smile

Tell me how proud of me you are

That I can stand on my own

That I never gave up who I am

But don't you know

It's lonely up here

I'm all alone

You may be proud of me

But others have what I want

And I don't know how much longer I can wait

I'm driving down this road

I don't know where I'm going

Just know that I've got to clear my mind

I feel so alone

I just want someone to see me

I just want someone to hold my hand

And try to understand me

They keep telling me someday

You'll find your Mr. Perfect

But where is he now

I can't keep waiting

I'm driving around

Trying to clear my mind

Forget how lonely I really am

I can't keep doing this alone

I need someone to stand by me

Someone to understand me

You keep telling me someday

But I can't keep waiting

I don't want Mr. Perfect

Just a Mr. that wants to hold my hand

I'm driving around

Trying to clear my mind

To forget how lonely I really am

Have you ever had so much going on in your head, that you just don't know what to say? Maybe to have too much to think about. All the people you know going through struggles, all the people that let you down, all the things you're afraid you won't experience? Just one of those days that no matter how hard you try to look up, there is too much on your shoulders holding you down. A day when you just want to reach out and hold a hand, but you don't know how to ask. You don't know how to show your needs. A day when it just seems too hard, but no matter what you can never give up. You're trying to hold on but your hands are slipping.

I'm making it on my own

Day by day

As I go down this road all alone

Okay I don't know what I am writing and I think this is something I've said before.

I know that the decisions was a struggle

And not everyone agreed

But it was something you had to do on your own

No one know your heart better than you

I hope you know how strong I know you are

That you can make it on your own

Most of all that he was wrong

Sometimes you must put yourself first

You can't make everyone happy

So follow your heart

And do what you feel is right

I've known you for so long

I've seen you struggle, stumble and fall

So trust me when I tell you

I know just how strong you are

I know that you can make it on your own.

But if you ever need a friend

Or a helping hand

I'm always here

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Have you ever wondered what happened

Why it all went away

What once mattered

No longer does

Why that person left

You'll never know

But you can never completely forget

But now their gone

There is no going back

Sometimes you wish

You were never friends

But you can't have regrets

You'll always wonder

What went wrong

What changed

But there is no answer

No going back

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Here is to not feeling alone in a lonely world

Ever listen to a song and it changes your whole day because you realize someone else out there feels the same way you do or is/has gone through the same thing? Sometimes the best part is hearing that song months later and remembering how much it meant to you.

Marie Digby- Unfold

You see, I'm the bravest girl
You'll ever come to meet
Yet, I shrink down to nothing
At the thought of someone really seeing me
I think my heart is wrapped around
And tangled up in winding weeds

But, I don't wanna go on living
Being so afraid of showing
Someone else my imperfections
And even though my feet are trembling
Every word I say comes stumbling
I will bare it all
Watch me unfold
Unfold, unfold

These hands that I hold behide my back
Are bound and broken from my own doing
And I can't feel anything anymore
I need a touch to remind me
I'm still real

Sometimes I feel as though I hide myself because I'm afraid of rejection. Its something that I'm familiar with. Something no one should be familiar with. So to keep from feeling it again I just hide myself away. But that isn't always healthy or helpful. I'm not perfect and I don't want to be because perfection is boring. A little unperfection keeps life interesting.

Sara Bareillis- City Lights

Here in these deep city lights
Girl could get lost tonight
I'm finding every reason to be gone
There's nothing here to hold on to
Could i hold you?

Calling out somebody save me i feel like i'm fading away
Am i gone?
Calling out somebody save me i feel like i'm fading

I've got some lessons to learn

Somethings I've got to do on my own

I may not know where I'm going

Or how I'm going to get there

But I'll make it somehow

I'm growing stronger everyday

Someday I may even let my true colors show

I may let you in

Let you see who I really am

I've learned so much

This path I've traveled hasn't been easy

It has left me broken, bruised and scared

But I haven't yet given up yet

I've got lessons to learn

Walls to pull down

I may not know what I'm doing

And I may be wrong

But I've got to do it on my own

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Oblivion

I am rushing ahead to oblivion.

Into a place no one has ever been.

I'm losing who I really am

I'm quickly fading away

I don't know why this is happening

I don't know where I'm going

But I just keep rushing ahead

Unable to find the brakes

I am rushing ahead into oblivion

Into a place no one has ever been

I'm loosing who I really am

I'm quickly fading away

Every turn I take

I get more lost

Every stop I take

I realize there is no going back

I am rushing ahead into oblivion

Into a place no one has ever been

I'm loosing who I really am

I'm quickly fading away

Will you notice when I'm gone?

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What now

So has anyone ever asked you how you were doing and you couldn't answer them because you didn't know. Well today I had a friend ask me and I thought about it and I just didn't know. Not that I'm numb because I'm not. I am happy for a few reasons, but then there were other things that made me mad today too. I just don't know. Its almost as if I just don't care, but I do. Maybe I'm just at an impasse.

I wake up to a new day
And just wonder
What now?

I no longer know whats happening
I no longer care

If feels as though I'm just stuck
Never moving forward
It's impossible to move back

So I ask myself
What now?
Whats next?

I wake up each day

Wondering
Will this day matter,

Or am I still stuck?

I no longer know where I'm going

I no longer know whats going to happen

So how do I care

I wake up to a new day

And just wander

What now?

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