You didn't know, will you ever know?

These past days I have felt so lost, like I'm in my own lonely world watching everything fade away. I need a friend to talk to but what would I say if I got the chance. What are the words I need to say, how can I explain? What could they say? My mind is so cloudy tonight, with so many thoughts running through. I can't read and I can't watch TV. I've been trying to write it out but its just bring all those buried feelings out. They won't go away. Sometimes I wonder who really cares, and who is just there. I wonder if anyone truely knows me.

I'm dying a little more everyday
And I wonder if you know
How much I'm losing this uphill battle

Everyday I wake up knowing
I need to fight a little harder
But I don't know how much fight I have left
I don't know how much more I can take

And I want to lean on you so bad
But at some point
Don't I need to stand on my own

I'm dying a little more everyday
And I wonder if you know
How much I"m losing this uphill battle

I'm dying a little more everyday
I haven't got much left
I think someday all of me will be gone.



If I were gone one day
Would you miss me
Would you even notice

Sometimes I wonder
If you even see the real me
See the broken little girl in me
The one that's been betrayed, lied to,
The one that's been beaten and bruised
The one that has been kicked too many times to get up

Do you need me
The way I need you
Do you know how much I depend on you
Do you know the power you hold
How easily you could make me cry
How easily you could break my heart

Sometimes I wonder
If you even see the real me
The little girl inside
Coverd with too many scars


Looking around for music today I found Renee Stahl and I like most of her music, though some of her songs are a little to techy for me. She is not as folk and as acoustic as I've into but I found this song and feel as if it was written for me. (No I'm not that egotistical to think that she wrote it for me, but more like written for those that feel the same way.) Its called "You Didn't Know"

whoever told you that you were not good enough
no need to know why, it’s just a lie
however long ago, somebody told you so when you decide, it’s just a lie

chorus

you didn’t know that you were enough
you didn’t know so you give up

no matter what they say, don’t throw the truth away you‘ll see in time… it was a lie
even when it gets hard don’t forget who you are when you decide, it’s just a lie

chorus

you didn’t know that you were enough
you didn’t know so you give up
but what if I told you that you were loved
what if you knew that you were loved

chorus